well... taking a timeout at home. juz went out wif huangcheng peeps. namely jj jaime n tsai. other two lazy call members cldnt make it. sadded. but nvm. had a prima deli cake at kovan's burger king. so big lah. den the two gals eat one small piece gif up liao. jj ate two which wasnt much help either. i ate half can. still got oone 6th of the cake which i cldnt manage. so... thrown away. wat a pity. argh. aniwae, dey planted the candles in strange positions. ard the edge of the cake. erpz. was kinda funny tho. we were laffing so loud dat the folks behind us were staring. aniwae, dey gave me a pair of boxers wif lipstick marks all over it and a door sign saying don't disturb. on it is a pic of unacceptable behaviour and some sounds in speech bubbles. oh well. dun realli dare to show my parents. den we walked ard heartland mall, lookin at sports stuff n all. den took neoprints which look hilarious. hai miss the days of huangcheng.
juz had yet another talk wif my mum abt huangcheng... think she realli wants me to let go of it. bian shen meeting is tmr... how??? argh. hai... thinking thinking... huangcheng is not a priority. how can i rank it above health n studies? time wld be much betta spent on studies. i mean, pursuing drama cld be left to a much later date. perhaps even become my career. but... to become good at drama n obtain a reasonable pay to get me by, i hafta go overseas. singapore is too confined to get anything done. but... dun wanna leave my parents here. i wanna stay in sg. so how? hahaha im not saying huangcheng nxt yr can serve as a substitute for my possible future years in drama. but... at least i can grab unto another experience. another "touched". huangcheng, as i said, is not a thing. its a dream. one grab n it may be whisked away by any wind. the pay for huangcheng, cant even be said to be those 100 days, where we learnt to be independent, betta at acting, socialising. no no no no... the pay, is in the breath of happiness we barely can smell when everyone in huangcheng celebrates at the end of a successful performance. everyone is celebrating. happy for the one thing. the same thing. dats the true payoff.
since its not a priority... but juz a dream... shld i? shld i insist?
shld i............
