i muz be getting fat. cos i cant seem to find enough space in your life.
well CNY is here. its been kinda boring. sumhow at my age, bai nian-ing isnt really the best thing in the world anymore. haha we've become the wiser, knowing that the angpows wld make their way into our hands aniwae. haha well watched two movies in two days. ytd watched i not stupid too which was pretty good i wld sae. quite touching. felt like crying. haha den today watched memoirs of a geisha for the 2nd time wif my fam. think its really good. but ppl tell me the book is tonnes better. guess i better read it.
went to meet qingliang laoshi after dat. yet another year has flown past. so fast its incredible. so many things started. so many things still in place, unsolved. and of course so many things ended.
had conversations there. din talk much. moody. but there were laughs. yeapz. and it sometimes bamboozles me how come ppl dun seem to noe wad i really need at dat very moment. especially when we know each other well enough.
after dat took bus back wif isaac ern aaron celine. had a slow walk home by myself. nice n quiet. wif my leg so painful, i was walking in a limp. and wif the can of 100plus in my hands, bet alotta ppl who saw me juz now thot i was drunk or sumthin. haha downing some liquid and walking unstable-y.
truth is im drunk wif sorrow.
tmr might not work bah. i dunno. dun feel like. especially after guanhow persuaded me not to. haha sounds reasonable. not alotta ppl wld be in town. much less shops open for business.
so many ppl told me at least this...
at least that...
well looks like there is a lesser than least.
Daddy, i really wanna hand all this into Your hands.
my heart. my soul. my mind.
my words. my deeds. my life.
everything within me
take it
well he said it in chinese. but i'm gonna attempt to translate it.
original:
bu4 neng2 yin1 wei4 guo4 qu4 de4 shang1 gan3, er2 wang4 le4 jin1 tian1 you3 ren2 xiang4 ni3 wei1 xiao4
translation:
do not let the sorrows of past cloud your sight of those who still give you heartfelt smiles
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
quote of the day from miss eng hahaha
well got the visa job. its hell troublesome wif the stock taking. really heavy. one day can kill. so far i take stock twice both for two days wan. so nearly died. now haf a wiser choice. take cab. hahaha oh well the pays good. the work is okay. even tho the uploading of stuff is tedious. but wth. its work. not meant to be VERY enjoyable. hahaha
well had class reunion dinner ytd. its 243am now so it was ytd. well few ppl turned up but still. it was a fair reunion. hahaha had well... not the best food in the world. but we got talk alot. haha when we plucked up courage to talk to the grandjuniors, it was time to go! hahaha so sian diao. oh well went to holland v to meet ling and marc for a drink or two. yea planned wala wala initially. but the drinks there were so ex. hahhaa so we decided to hop down to fosters to drink. yea had a strawberry margarita. well not my type. hahaha ling's blue hybrid sumthin and marc's tequila sunrise were way better. oh well haha came home after some talking cock and now ling korn and nel are at my hse. only me n korn still awake. ling juz conked out. she looks hilarious wahhahaa shes gonna kill me when she reads this. haha nel... juz looks asleep. hahaha well watching the fast and the furious now. so... when i haf time will blog again.
hahaha juz spent some of my free time creating a whole new blog! hahaha for regina kwek! haha hope ya like it! whew long time nv do blog liao... hahaha. loocy might get a revamp next! haha
haha sumtimes i realise dat the things i do make me seem really ridiculous even tho the intention may not have been dat way.
hai. i really cant wait for my job to start. cos dat means im earning money. and also means that i haf sumthin to fill up my empty life wif. nowadays, either at home, or making trips down to the library. both of which are getting boring too. haiz
sometimes i feel like a carton of milk
u nourish, u provide, u build up
but when ur expiry date comes, theres no use for u anymore
pushed to the sidelines
thrown away
but i guess i did nourish, provide and build up.
well met up wif pms and ling today. spent most of the time looking ard for marc's new yr stuff. hardly had time to sit down and talk cock oso. ended up marc only bought a pair of shoes at the shop where i bought my pumas. hahaha now i feel like buying ANOTHER pair of shoes. hahaha die larh
well i juz got back frm a trip to johor bahru ytd. haha well it was fun i guess. we stayed at a single shopping centre for... 9 hrs! hahaha incredible oh well
the day started off wif me arriving at woodlands mrt at 1008am. hahaha we were supposed to meet at 10am but i was the earliest. so i went to woodlands library to throw in my books first. went back and met jialing n guanhow and i told em abt how i nearly forgot to bring my passport. haha guess wad
jialing REALLY forgot hers.
haha so we travelled all the way to her house for her to get her passport. of cuz ate some tidbits at her hse, dunno y she was like demanding dat we try everything. haha den we cabbed down to woodlands checkpoint and den after fumbling wif the white card, finally got into m'sia and walked towards city square. hahaha well we did a quick scan of the whole building first, getting to know where to find the cheapest and best quality stuff we were looking for, before actually spending money. took a break at secret recipe, where we had our lunch for half price in singapore hahaha SHUANG DAO. irish lamb stew rocks my socks. but i was wearing slippers... erpz aniwae after dat scanned another level in the shopping centre b4 going on to watch memoirs of a geisha there! hahaha its actually a cathay cineplex cinema, so it was pretty comfortable inside. haha and it only cost us 5 sing dollars! haha tan dio. the show is really good. jialing says she wants to watch it again in singapore. haha maybe i wld too... haha hmm den went on to shop and shop and shop. hahaha really sweep. at one go spend all the big bucks. i bought a pair of levi's. haha finally a pair of the coveted jeans. it costs 139 ringgit. so i guess its pretty cheap as compared to in singapore. hmm den bought a pair of northern rock jeans oso. haha northern rock is the sponsor of newcastle rite?? nv knew dey sold jeans. oh wells wanted to buy a whole lot more stuff, like 2 tshirts, a belt and a wallet, a bag, and if possible fake oakley shades, but in the end... haha all never buy. ooops oh well cldnt find really nice stuff oso larh. like strike me hard kind. but nvm hahaha ling and guan bought their stuff too. yeapz went back only at 920pm. took 950 back to woodlands mrt where we den took mrt home. think its quite fast. dat way i can reach home in an hour. yeapz. but i took longer cos JOY TOLD ME IT'S OKAY TO GO AND FIND HER AT SERANGOON NORTH AVE 4 BUT LEFT BEFORE I REACHED. so i had to walk the long road home. so lonely! hahahaha oh well reached home bathe den sleep le. was absolutely exhausted.
well another day. got two interviews coming up. see how bah... hope i can get the SHIOK job. hahaha
from memoirs of a geisha:
the heart takes a long time to die...
just like how a tree slowly sheds its leaves...
until the tree is all bare...
i shall be a man. keep my ego. go on wif my life.
right jstc? :)))
go superlide go! jiayou!
cause its all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and I can't keep picturing you with him
and it hurts so bad, yeah
cause it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and I can't take it yeah
i can't shake it
no
i can't wait to see you
want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
that one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
and it's a shame that we got to spend our time
being mad about the same things
over and over again
about the same things
over and over again
oh
but I think she's leaving
oh man
she's leaving
i don't know what else to do
i can't go on not loving you
cause its all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturing you with him
and it hurts so bad, yeah
cause it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it yeah
i can't shake it
no
i remember the day you left
i remember the last breath you took right in front of me
when you said that u would leave
i was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
but i see clearly now
and this choice i made keep playing in my head
over and over again
playing in my head
over and over again
oh
i think she's leaving
oh man
she's leaving
i don't know what else to do
i can't go on not loving you
cause its all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturing you with him
and it hurts so bad, yeah
cause it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it yeah
i can't shake it
no
now that i've realizes that i'm going down
from all this pain you've put me through
everytime i close my eyes i lock it down
i can't go on not loving you
cause its all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturing you with him
and it hurts so bad, yeah
cause it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it yeah
i can't shake it
no
cause its all in my head
i think about it over and over again
and i can't keep picturing you with him
and it hurts so bad, yeah
cause it's all in my head
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
and i can't take it yeah
i can't shake it
no
over and over again
over and over again
cause it's all in my head
the heart is a bloom
shoots up through the stony ground
there's no room
no space to rent in this town
you're out of luck
and the reason that you had to care
the traffic is stuck
and you're not moving anywhere
you thought you'd found a friend
to take you out of this place
someone you could lend a hand
in return for grace
it's a beautiful day
sky falls
you feel like
it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away
you're on the road
but you've got no destination
you're in the mud
in the maze of her imagination
you love this town
even if that doesn't ring true
you've been all over
and it's been all over you
it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away
it's a beautiful day
touch me
take me to that other place
teach me
i know i'm not a hopeless case
see the world in green and blue
see China right in front of you
see the canyons broken by cloud
see the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
see the Bedouin fires at night
see the oil fields at first light
and see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
after the flood all the colors came out
it was a beautiful day
don't let it get away
beautiful day
touch me
take me to that other place
reach me
i know i'm not a hopeless case
what you don't have you don't need it now
what you don't know you can feel it somehow
what you don't have you don't need it now
don't need it now
was a beautiful day
it became a beautiful day only about 60+ hours back. and just this morning it really felt that the sky was beaming down on me again. haha who knew it would crash down on me.
haha
oh God why...? tell me why? why issit i feel so insecure all of a sudden? even though it seems that it's all for the better... that You are allowing me to go Israel, You allowed me to go to prom, You allowed me another 4 months of serving in Your ministry... but yet i can't find trust in this plan of Yours of my life...? quelm my heart... calm me down...
even at the ends of the earth... i know in my heart You would be there for me... let me learn this please!!
i feel so misunderstood... haiz
they don't care how much you know...
until they know how much you care...
hai i hate it when things are like that. i just wish it would stop. could we just leave everything behind and start anew...?
what you gonna do with all that junk?
all that junk inside your trunk?
i'm a get, get, get, get, you drunk
get you love drunk off my tum
my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum
my tum, my tum, my tum
my lovely little bump
(check it out)
i call my belly "tummy"
i do it on the daily
i treat him really nicely
i buy him 3 piece KFC
spicy and original
crispy and then fiery flava
i be sharin
all my money got him wearin
huge belly but i ain't askin
they say they love my ass
mcdonalds, long john silver
i say no, but they keep givin
and so i keep on takin
and no i ain't fakin
and we can keep on eatin
and i keep on demonstratin
my love, my love, my love, my love
you love my manly bump
my tum, my tum, my tum
my tum he's got u
he's got me spending
(oh)
spendin all your money on me
and spending time on me
he's got me spendin
(oh)
spendin all your money on me
on me on me
what you gonna do with all that junk?
all that junk inside that trunk?
i'm a get, get, get, get, you drunk
get you love drunk off my tum
what u gonna do with all that ass?
all that ass inside them jeans?
i'm a eat, eat, eat, eat ice cream
eat ice cream, eat ice cream
cos of my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum
my tum, my tum, my tum
my lovely manly bump
(check it out)
i met my tummy down at the disco
he said hey, hey, hey yea let's go
i could be your buddy
you can be my honey
let's spend time not money
i mix your milk with my cocoa puff
milky, milky cocoa
mix your milk with my cocoa puff
milky, milky riiiiiiight
wenjie says i'm really sexy
he always wanna touch me
he's always standing next to me
always dancing next to me
tryin to feel my tum, tum
lookin at my bump, bump
you can look but you can't touch it
if you touch it
i'm a start some drama
you don't want no drama
no no drama
no no no no drama
so don't pull on my hand, boy
you ain't my man, boy
i'm a just tryin a dance boy
and move my tum
my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum
my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum, my tum
my lovely manly bump
my lovely manly bump
my lovely manly bump
in the back and in the front
my lovin got you
he's got me spendin
(oh)
spendin all your money on me
and spending time on me
he's got me spendin?
(oh)
spendin all your money on me
on me on me
what you gonna do with all that junk?
all that junk inside that trunk?
i'm a get, get, get, get, you drunk
get you love drunk off my tum
what u gonna do with all that ass?
all that ass inside them jeans?
i'm a eat, eat, eat, eat ice cream
eat ice cream, eat ice cream
what you gonna do with all that junk?
all that junk inside that trunk?
i'm a get, get, get, get, you drunk
get you love drunk off my tum
what you gonna do with chicken breast?
chicken breast that tastes like shit?
i'm a change, change, change, change it to thigh meat
make you think think
make you think that this part of the lyrics alteration doesnt make sense at all cos i really dunno wat to write instead
he's got me spendin
spendin all your money on me
and spending time on me
he's got me spendin
spendin all your money on me
on me on me
hmmm well it was sunday ytd. so it was church day. well had to attend two sermons in a row by the same guy. quite taxing. haha.
suffered from intense bad mood the whole day. dota was like shit.
walked wif celine to suntec. cute lil' her was irritated wif her slightly oversized shoes being drenched in the wet weather so she removed her shoes and walked through hotel rendezvous and SMU barefooted. hahaha it was quite a funny sight. reached suntec and she went to find her frenz and i looked ard for stuff. bought the stuff and went to haf dinner wif family at TIAN TIAN HUO GUO XIAO CHU. haha its dat steamboat buffet u see on tvmobile all the time. yeapz. NO MSG SIAL. well it was onli normal i guess. tonite my parents wanna go FEI YANG HAI XIAN HUO GUO. siao diao liao dunno y dey so overly enthu abt steamboat buffet all of a sudden.
i just wanna be a good friend...
well firstly, i gotta say sorry to all those who have been upset by my recent spate of bad moods, oversensitive comments and assholish behaviour. especially to jstc... hai it's getting better these few days i guess... hope i can keep up the good mood.
hmm well i haven blogged proper entries abt my life since a long while ago. well the highlights were the lan party at isaac's hse. den the counting down at fullerton where billions of another race squeezed and shoved. rude. den went back to hcjc for soccer which wasnt much. well and den there was a few job interviews. some of which nv honour their promises as they claimed in their newspaper ads. pretty much pissed me off. and i bought a new pair of shoes! hahaha puma ones. beige wif brown base. hmm den went back to hcjc again to see our junior classES. yes CLASSES. 69 and 6F. well i guess they are... ok.............................................................
life's been tough. dunno why. all of a sudden. and the door to door survey thingy doesnt help. its realli difficult. out of 3 households i go to, only 1 would answer. sian diao lorh.
man i pray i would get better soon
i've been getting really zhuai statements recently
you say have den have lorh.
ur head larh.
believe wadever you wanna believe.
who saves superlide?
tmdccbwtf.
i feel so so so damn sian.
new year. new expectations. new hopes. new life.
and i wonder sometimes... if i knew the any of you at all...
