gonna be a very loooooong blog... hmm... first things first. soccer updates. haha slower than soccernet paiseh.
DENMARK 0 - 0 ITALY
was a gd match. watched last 20 min of it. buffon is a bloody nutter. so is sorensen. no wonder nil-nil.
SWEDEN 5 - 0 BULGARIA
Fredrik Ljungberg 32nd min
Henrik Larsson 57th min
Henrik Larsson 58th min
Zlatan Ibrahimovic 78th min (pen)
Marcus Allback 90th min
wah biang eh. din watch this match. muz haf been good. tsktsk 5 whole goals lehz!!
still think there are way too many yellow cards this tournament. siao
aniwae, now onto y is today so frustrating. haiz. something i love... huangcheng... dunno. my parents want me to not go nxt yr... sian diao. bian shen meeting on thurs 10-12pm. shld i go...? arghhh. feelin like a broomstick is up my ass. sian diao. this yr i joined huangcheng... its like the craziest three months of my life. busy? yea? tiring? yea. fun? hell yea! got to know some of the best frenz i may eva meet in my life. lazy call. jj tsai jaime. nao gui peeps. there i had one of the worst moments of my life. get shouted at. get niao-ed at. eat shit for dinner everyday. reach home 10+ every nite. den: y? u ask me. y do i wanna go for another round of torture? plus i haf studies. i haf table tennis. in this short 2 yrs of my life in hcjc... another three months wld mean a quarter of my time in hcjc is spent on this crazy event. worth it or not??? tell me... sumone worth it or not??
but if no one tells me... i shall answer myself. worth. its not even worth it. its even a major bargain to experience so so so much in juz a mere span of 100 days. wat else can i ask for?
hence, i wanna join huangcheng. its been my desire eva since those curtains closed b4 me dat nite. i'm even prepared to not get into the table tennis team again nxt yr. table tennis has been half my life. i can't let it go. but huangcheng is a dream. i wanna chase it. aniwae, my table tennis has nv been much zai. plus hcjctt is like, a dream team. real madrid. no space for me at all. might as well juz go there n train for exercise, get to noe a few frenz, get to stay in contact wif my bez frenz. ty jh jx... hai. dunno seems like i've grown distant frm em eva since huangcheng. dun wan it to be this way. especially ty. sumtimes i find it so depressing. dey used to be the ones behind me, giving me advice. now... argh!! sian diao. hope i can find em ard me once again soon... hope dey understand my choice oso. to go after drama.
but wat abt my parents? dey r the ones who has started this spiral frm the beginning. dey r worried abt my studies dat i understand. my studies haven been good for this past 6 months too... argh. block test... dun think i can do well too. den it wld be like... a lack of proof dat i can balance studies n huangcheng. regret... regret. now i pia like shit lidat... oso inconfident of passing everything. muz convince my parents. dat i can do it. i can do it... eh... so shld i go for bian shen meeting this thurs?
2nd item... argh. abandoned. tmr's my bday... but sumhow my arrangements all jumbled up. i was trying to be understanding... i noe dat ur in a difficult position. even can sae its deep shit. i realli tried to understand. i admit i was disappointed. but i wasnt angry. i was mentally prepared aniwae. so i asked: cancel? n u answered lidat! it's like so... insensitive! i wasn't even angry!! den the least i expected was a simple sorry. but wait... it nv came... i called u to confirm. n nvm u din gif me an apology. i can forget abt it. but the thing is... u started to rationalise urself again. cldnt bear to listen on n flare. dun wanna flare at u animore... i've always been fuming at u. i noe it's not nice. i'm a bastard to do dat. dat's y recently i've been trying my best to control dat beastly temper of mine. i think i can sae dat i've succeeded so far. so... when u started i juz hung up. i'm sorry abt dat. but... hope u noe i was having u at heart oso.
well, abt today. whole day at home. been studying n pia-ing tutorials. find it gettin harder n harder. hai. hope i'll gain enlightenment soon. den folded a million paper airplanes today. realising how much i like origami. there's this box shaped plane which can actually fly damn well. glides through the air. amazing lahz. physics... if onli 'a' levels were folding airplanes. sian diao. yea den juz came back frm dinner wif my ah ma. had crab n prawns... wasnt too fantastic. cos i still can't eat alot. but it tasted quite good lah. compared to my normal fare at the downstairs kopitiam.
sian day. tmr shall be more exciting! i'm so touched dat jj organised sumthin for me. think jaime played a large part too rite? haha thanx! den zhan n ling oso... hahaha. erpz. celine... i din mean dat im askin u to fill up my time... oh well. dat was quite frustrating too. sian diao. well we'll see abt it tmr! tonite staying up to watch the big match. NETHERLANDS VS GERMANY!! muahahahha. oranje rox. betta win. n hope my cable channel works. its been goin down on me recently. man. dun wanna wake up for nuttin. yea dats all for today...
long rite?????
