i muz be getting fat. cos i cant seem to find enough space in your life.
well CNY is here. its been kinda boring. sumhow at my age, bai nian-ing isnt really the best thing in the world anymore. haha we've become the wiser, knowing that the angpows wld make their way into our hands aniwae. haha well watched two movies in two days. ytd watched i not stupid too which was pretty good i wld sae. quite touching. felt like crying. haha den today watched memoirs of a geisha for the 2nd time wif my fam. think its really good. but ppl tell me the book is tonnes better. guess i better read it.
went to meet qingliang laoshi after dat. yet another year has flown past. so fast its incredible. so many things started. so many things still in place, unsolved. and of course so many things ended.
had conversations there. din talk much. moody. but there were laughs. yeapz. and it sometimes bamboozles me how come ppl dun seem to noe wad i really need at dat very moment. especially when we know each other well enough.
after dat took bus back wif isaac ern aaron celine. had a slow walk home by myself. nice n quiet. wif my leg so painful, i was walking in a limp. and wif the can of 100plus in my hands, bet alotta ppl who saw me juz now thot i was drunk or sumthin. haha downing some liquid and walking unstable-y.
truth is im drunk wif sorrow.
tmr might not work bah. i dunno. dun feel like. especially after guanhow persuaded me not to. haha sounds reasonable. not alotta ppl wld be in town. much less shops open for business.
so many ppl told me at least this...
at least that...
well looks like there is a lesser than least.
Daddy, i really wanna hand all this into Your hands.
my heart. my soul. my mind.
my words. my deeds. my life.
everything within me
take it
